i had a great time thanks to......

Jasmine, for...
1) lending me her AJ skirt
2) picking me up at aj gate
3) bringing me around the sch (to audi especially haha)
4) introducing me to her fwens so i wouldn't feel left out
5) making and listening to my funny comments about the contestants =.=
6) letting me share the free pizza
7) treating me to tapioca chips and honey sea coconut dessert
8) lending me a pair of berms to wear home
9) being such a sweeeeetttt buddy, pal, squadmate, wadeva..always...=)

Guan Jie, for...: 1) helping me queue for aj idol tix
2) getting the skirt from jas during sportsday
3) forgetting to bring his orientation tee, chionging all the way home frm aj sportsday to get it den chiong back to hc to pass to me (wah stamina)
4) giving me a pkt of Ricola mountain breeze sweets
5) sending me an sms of aj info in case i get suspected for crashing
6) buying me a light stick for the concert
7) bursting balloons under my nose after knowing i detest balloons within 20m radius
8) being such a caring friend..always...=)

thanks alot guys, for making aj idol so exciting for me [Hazlami rocks]...hurhurhur even though hc talentime was a better talent show...hehhhhhh =)

haha....crapp...

i'm at xiao pin rehearsal now...gonna test the "cow" make up on the actors today...it was an 'interesting' ordeal trying to characterize and design the 5 cow faces (o.0)..it wasn't an easy task..besides chao-hsiang, the others were sorta character-less..or character-full depending on how you see it...so we couldn't characterize them too much..yet we have to bring out the subtle differences in them...hmmz....it was fun anw..hope it's gonna be fun today as well...=)

ok they're moving the tables and chairs...gtg...or else i'll be trapped -.-...

oh hsiang-ge made a brainless comment on my "eng name" Haze... "haze...makes me choke" he says... .hurhur.

2.4 km...surprisingly, no huff no puff....

Ran 2.4km for NApfa today...was hoping to achieve a C..which had always been my target since primary sch coz my stamina sucks...just wanted a C for my running to get gold for napfa.... the sun was scorching today...we ran at about 4 plus in the afternoon... many pals in my class happen to feel ill today so in the end a grand total of 12 of us ran (out of 26 peeps)....what honour to be one of the few...wanna get it over n done with...... so we ran...i did not stop at all, felt the charring heat against my cheeks & the droplets of persperation suspended on my forehead..yet surprisingly, the stitch never came...besides the temporary muscle strain on my legs, i actually felt that the run was quite a breeze.... the finishing line loomed towards me...i smiled at some of the 26 minus 12 pals from my class, and completed my ordeal....a little breathless at first, but my recovery was in a matter of seconds....i amazed myself...my pals were amazed too...i was like the first girl in my class or sthg...hahaha...anw i got a B and i didnt feel tired at all...weirrddd....hehhhh...my stamina actually improved....perhaps a B doesnt sound like much of an achievement but to me...whoa...it's an achievement indeed...my best timing in modern history u noe.... =] so it's confirmed....i've secured a gold for napfa...phew...

the sound of music sounds....

went to watch sound of music the musical @ esplanade with my best childhood friend, huiqing, yesterday...

we met at city hall mrt...den went to hunt for dinner....stopped by bodyshop to check out some fragrances...i want i want...but had little $$ with me...hmphz! we strolled n talk...talk talk...(gossip)... and finally decided to dine at the garlic restaurant...spent quite abit on food...but we were happy....haha took a couple of pics..... den on our way to the hall, we bought chocolate coated strawberries and marshmellows...hurhurhur....yummm =) i was telling her i love our age.... sound of music was gr8...i love the movie and the original cast better though (duhh...)...nevertheless, i enjoyed myself very much, taking note of the familiar scenes and humming away silently to the tunes....could see huiqing was super excited haha....glad to see that =)......

after the musical we proceeded to the rooftop to take pics (see "strictly-no-porn 2")...then on our way to the mrt in the underground tunnel, we took pics.....picspicspicspicsssss.....haha...we seldom hang out together...wanna capture almost every moment......=) anyway, just wanna tewl u qing dat i had an incredibly awesome time with u....love ya always!! muaacckzzz.... (."'.)

party at tpjc!!!

[pissed...] blogger sucks! the entry i just typed is all gone! stupid blogger kept askin me to sign in and sign in and sign in again! darn u!! argghhhhh!!! ok....i have to repeat myself..........argh.......gekkkk...... ='(

as i've said....i returned home too late on friday for me to update my blog..so here i am rewinding the grandfather clock and pretending it's friday today.....just play along....=)

party at tpjc......woohoo! exciting...the crowd was large but we had our doubts...there were no hwa chong peeps (besides kian and gf)....no guaranteed applause or wadsoever...only us, our performance, and our fates -- in their hands...... the only thing we could count on, perhaps, was the default hysteria of the crowd...we sincerely hope not to kill it...."boom boom, boom boom".............

"Give it up for, Rhythm & Beat!!" wooohooooo....!!

the crowd was wonderful! they actually cheered for us!! lifted our spirits and spurred us to shake it shakeshakeshake......i believe we did great... it sure took many hands to clap...=)

we had lotsa fun watching others perform as well (D'Cheats from nanyang poly were darn impressive!)... then comes my favourite part of the night -- freeeee dancinnggg!! we boogied n boogied (esp zhiwen).. it was a pity the tracks were all of average tempo, it would be better if the tracks were more upbeat...D'Cheats were super fun and sporting...their instructress danced hardcore hiphop..damn hot (sissle sissle)...they joined in our grp and couple of times to dance together (i suspect weidi was one of the reasons they did so hurhur)..they had really interesting & cute moves (some were snippets from you got served)...there was one part where the D'cheat girls danced a segment of their choreography along with the clubby music...haha that was wayyy keewwll =) like weidi said, if one were in their dance team he'll be inspired to dance everyday.... oh speaking of weidi, there's this older girl in D'Cheats who's really into him! hahaha...we formed a circle around them so they could boggie together..but it was more like the girl dancing and weidi lookin lost & helpless.....haha teasing is awfully hilarious...multiplies the fun...poor weidi...=)

They said MAD hiphop wasn't as happening in the past...i'm really fortunate to be part of the danceworks team...to think i even refused to join MAD at the beginning of the year....sigh..love u guys....

You know, i once told someone i never make decisions i'll regret....hmm...so far so good... =)

de lovely....=)

it was rather embarrassing for me today...haha...after dance i took bus down to KAP to meet my mum..saw an ex-ny-fellow-schmate-current-hc-schmate..her name's chunli i guess...smiled "hi"... den my mum arrived at the bus stop, and so did chun li's family members (from kap i guess)...they were talking while i entered the car...den i heard my name being mentioned... chun li's mum was pointing at me & asking, "is this the singer"? den they waved goodbye to me and i waved through the car window...haha so cute..i was paiseh lar...but it feels nice... =)

i had so much fun it seemed surreal... =D

these two weeks have been such a dash for me! M.A.D. practice, bodylanguage practice, homework...nonetheless, it was all worthwhile...i enjoyed the race =)

Danceworks!'05 had finally come to an end on 16th Apr saturday... We got consolation ($200), but the competition was tough, really tough..only those who were there could witness our efforts that paid off well, in terms of performance... i danced like i never danced before...it was the most tiring, intensive, yet amazing 3.57 minutes of my life so far... As expected, WHAK was the champ, and everyone knows they deserved it. WHAK is from NUS, and guess what?! 1 or 2 of the guys were from hc previously! They were really supportive of us, cheering for us n stuff. Quoting one of them who left hc 6 yrs ago: "i haven't seen such a cool dance team from hwachong for 6 years!" =) thanks senior, whoever you are... Nanyang Poly people were friendly too, sadly they didn't win... we took some pics with them and exchanged handshakes..."may the white guys win" someone mentioned...i guess we all won in one way or another...

oh and guess who's the crowd charmer of the night?? weidi!! hahaha...so many girls were mesmerized by him..(about 2 or 3 so far)....wahh happy eh?...

Danceworks climaxed during the performance of the winners of the primary section! they were superstars i tell you, each and everyone of them..suuuupeerrrr cute!! lower primary i guess, too short to pass off as anything older..they were just like the 'lil kids in Honey or missy elliot's videos..adorable & professional...=) they stole the entire show..standing ovation came naturally...

After danceworks, we proceeded to Lagoona National, a posh golf club! zhiwen's parents are members, so we booked a suite for the night =D the suite was no less than a hotel suite..complete with living room, dining area, stairs leading up to the bedroom and a luxurious bathroom consisting of all toileteries, a bathtub and a shower cubicle! omg...it was such unexpected luxury everyone became super high...=) we did lotsa silly stuff (like dubbing with our own dialogues for the mellow-dramatic tamil shows on tv; tao-poking every guy; taking "sex" videos etc..), and played lotsa brainless games (the name game; heart-attack; indian poker; the what-huh game etc..) tao-pok was really cool! we did it on the bed (erps!) so it wasn't really painful..first victim was weidi, all the girls were on him! then daniel came into the room and was dumbfounded at the sight of it..haha he looked so lost! he didn't know whether to leave us alone or what.. haha funny...in the end he became our official bouncer and grabbed all the other guys in for a taupoking session! Kian actually thought we wanted to strip him and he scampered around like a hamster!! ahhahaha...

it was the first time i played most of the games..heart-attack was played in a different way: instead of piling our hands up, the person with a suite does an action and everyone follows. it was darn hilarious, esp when zhiwen ran to the bathroom and knocked the door (kian was showering); maria stuck her head under the coffee table, and that time when she cupped head with hands then decided to go further to squeezing her cheeks (the funny thing is everyone followed suit, it was more co-ordinated than a dance); i slammed the table, stood up and hit weidi (everyone had no trouble doing it except for weidi himself)....the list goes on......... the what-huh game was more exciting than i thought..we changed "what" and "huh" to "F***" and "you"..so in fact we were hurling vulgarities with no apparent reason..the brainless-ness of it all was pure entertainment and fun...

Forfeits...Joey had to take it off, Kian had a gender make-over, Germ had to prank call her bf who nv picked up the phone -.-, jialing and maria had to peck on da lipsss, sam had to lie down facing zhiwen (who wasnt even in the game..sigh innocent victim) with a pillow between them....etcetcetc....i took pictures and videos....these memories are simply too memorable...i tried to capture all of them.... =) check out my gallery in "strictly no porn"...i can't upload the videos though..i shall reserve them for ourselves only....

sleep. some of us slept on the beds, some slept on the couches, some slept on the carpeted floor..i slept on the floor, then in the morning after weidi woke up from the sofa i took over, then later on after zhiwen, sam, germ gave up their beds for morning games i took over too... at around 9am plus, after some morning games, we went for breakfast at the clubhouse cafe...i had the western set...yummmmmy... & the view was picturesque..the entire landscape was green...golf course mah...=)

we checked out at noon..my parents were already waiting at the lobby (sobb..touched). i missed everyone as soon as i waved goodbye... geez... can't wait for next dance practice =)... hahaha...i had fun people, i really did ^-^... hope we can

hang out more..must ok? =)

what's good is bad....?

hasn't blogged for a few days...been really busy...danceworks, bodylanguage -- they're sorta my priority now...=) {of coz i try to do my hmwk -.-} yay zhiwen said we girls improved...we hafta be more energetic n sensuous....yeahhh...

hmmz...mum and dad are in bangkok now, shopping...hope mum buys lotsa nice stuff for me... just returned from xiao huang cheng..our make-up group was the FIRST to perform...haha tough luck =) we only began practising in the afternoon..the result was not bad i guess..at least the audience was responsive hahah... =D

dumdeedummm...

sometimes i feel that i'm fortunate. i do not have to deal with problems regarding emotions, b-g relationships, loneliness, family etc... everyone has problems..mine seem trivial to me, as compared to others'... some people always seem to have so many problems to brood over, and so many sacks of emotions to sort...of which i often think they bring upon themselves... perhaps my optimism and independence are guilty for shaping me into a person who doesn't get bothered easily by the downs in life; perhaps it's my mum who's always there to listen to my rambling everyday. the thing is, i don't get upset easily, and even if i do, i'm used to settling them on my own...i don't usually need someone to protect and comfort me or try to make me smile like i'm some hurt little girl whining...

is this good or bad?

i see it's getting increasingly common for friends my age to chatter on the phone for hours...cheering one another up on the phone for hours...helping solve 'serious' relationship/emotional problems for hours ...................................................................................................................................... taking up a billion times of the time i took to type those dots. i don't talk on the phone like that for hours..especially not with guys..i do not have the "need" to...neither do i have the time...

is this good or bad?

i'm an optimistic girl independent in sorting my own trivial emotional moments... i don't go around letting people in my problems hoping they will comfort me coz mine are too trivial in the first place...even if someone will bother, i won't bother him/her coz i feel i do not require attention over such trivial matters...i don't call people up or sms just to crap coz i'm not phone-crappy and i only have 300 free smses a mth...and i don't exactly admire people who carry their precious little handphones in their palms 24-7 checking and pressing away...

is this good or bad?

many a times relationships are built quickly during these "comforting" sessions and hours of "communication"............... mine are often not..............

is this good or bad?

......hope it feels all right......

two pals in my class cried today...one is severely stressed..as for the other one, i'm not so sure really...i think it's an accumulation of stresses from all corners...from what i've heard she feels that our class has changed, we have changed, and our bond has frayed...sigh... the sun seems grey today......maybe it's getting old...
i'm rather apologetic as i can't help, i can't console them and i think they don't really need me to do that for them...they always had others, always looked for others.......so long as they're fine in the end......
I admit...unlike most girls in our class, i'm much more...unfeeling...perhaps this is part of my personality, perhaps this is a result of habitual emotional battles back in NYNP... i don't like to cry, few things bring tears to my eyes, and sometimes i try to understand what brings tears to others' eyes..but often it has little effect on me. am i stoned inside?......the most recent event that rock-ed tears over the edge was huangcheng..but it was only for a split moment...the salty droplets rolled, and evaporated.....
I don't expect much from the friendships in our class yet..at least on the surface i don't...my better friendships were built on a foundation of at least 4 years, 6 years, even 8 years...and those years weren't empty years...they were filled to the brim with sorrow, excitement, rage, joy, satisfaction, cold-wars, armed combats, jubilance -- the list goes on.... these are often the people whom i expect something from...something more than what i expect from you guys......i don't dare to ask for much in return from friends who entered my life only 3 months ago.............
Please don't mistake me for being anti-social or cold-blooded...i'm not =/...it's just that i'm slow-paced in this aspect and for me to regard anyone more than simply a friend-friend, we all need more of something......time, memories, ups-and-downs.....then will my tears be at your beck and call......
05A12 has been a great class so far...if we actually compare ourselves with many other classes, we would count ourselves lucky to be part of this community... 3 months of fun have driven past..in retrospect, you guys did left a deep impression on me... now that the honeymoon is over, what awaits us is not only the workload, but also further discovery of the goods and bads in everyone, and the learning of accepting the ugly truth.
to those who cried today, all i can do is wish for a brighter day tomorrow. =)

today today...tired tiday...

a tired today.... =)

had fun at MAD today...we cut up our razor backs, made them look really tattered...gonna wear a red tank inside...red & black..."a killer combination" -- quoting my snr germ...hahah, i love red ;) i like our jackets too...nice and hip-hoppish, reminds me of the little kids in "honey" @@"...haha... hoi i mean it as a compliment~! =)

today we made fun of jianming and tingxuan =p...i think this situation will persist for sometime before everyone else gets tired of it....haha we're so boliao!! sorry mingz n tingx...it's just for fun lar...just bear with us...but when u're almost up to ur boiling point do let us know in a controlled manner 0.0"...

hmmz....dad is supposed to pick up my altered hc uniform from the tailor auntie today, and guess what?! she had a note stuck to her metal shutters saying she's taking a day off! to think that she actually told me specifically to pick up my clothes 12pm-6pm today! Grrr...haf to wear the same set of uniform tomorrow...but fret not, it's supeerrrr clean....smellin' gooood!

Are you for real?

there are times that i get quite confused about how i feel towards our class...i like it no doubt..i love it sometimes...and once in a dark blue moon i feel indifferent.

Today Hons and i were talking about attention seeking...we both agree that blatant attention seeking is less annoying than subtle attention seeking......if you know what i mean......

Hmmz....i need one more person for Bodylanguage!! Am desprate.

Danceworks '05 is round the corner (16 Apr)! i'm supeerrr excited about it =) Expo Hall 2...capacity: 3500! i'm trying to get tickets for friends who care...and i believe this shall be en exhilirating ride for me! I love the euphoria...even though it comes to a point where it's difficult to breathe...sigh...love is blind... =) Xiao Huang Cheng is next saturday...i wonder what we are going to perform haha...looking forward to it....decision made -- i shall not quit huang cheng.

monkey see monkey do.....

When you're near me i'm close to tears Coz you're only Almost here...

i realise there are many things that i cant seem to bring myself to say in my blog...obviously i don't enjoy the benefits of anonymity coz i'm not anonymous n i dun intend to be...i'll try my best to be transparent here but the highest i'll hit is probably 80%...i do admire people who aren't afraid to expose their naked selves online and get raped..but i can't and shan't be one of those bold people. However this doesnt mean wad you see is not wad u get..haha..it's just that you don't really get the entire package that's all. Simple as that. Anyway, i doubt anyone would really bother...it's just leisure writing n reading afterall... My computer is finally repaired! Phew thanks dad! He sent it for repair =) Was April Fools' yesterday...didn't really fool anyone except for Zhiwen, my dance i/c...haha i lied that i sprained my ankle so bad i can't dance for the next two weeks...then when i told him it was a prank, he replied me with three dots...haha, expected... Yesterday night was TV night...i was really tired after going to beauty world to downsize my hc skirt and then to the tailor to get it altered with xiaoyuan..thanks gurl for accompanying me to avoid going out with your other friends! hahaha... so today i decided to be the sweet girl and accompany Hons to beauty world to downsize her skirt.. we waited for a really long time coz the poor auntie was handling customers single-handedly (where did the uncle go?!).. Unfortunately for Hons the stocks didn't last..so she could only exchange one skirt instead of 2..after that we went Watsons coz i wanted to buy sthg..then while talking about skirt sizes Hons realised she could've gotten Another size smaller since the skirt's still rather loose...good job Hons...so we went back to the shop again to get the smaller size... guess wad? Long queue =) had no choice but to waitttt... When our turn comes, we realised a lady cut our queue, but it's ok...THen we realised, she took the LAST piece of that particular size! Hail lord! Hons was like "qi si ren le"..hahah we were really gek, but at the same time we thought it was quite funny... the poor lady who cut our queue unintentionally seems really apologetic..she kept saying stuff like "sorry sorry...but u all should've told me..blah blah.." Hons said it was ok but u could see her gek-ness...i just smiled at the lady and we walked away haha.. Chill ma'am...it's ok, really...=) So back to yesterday night. My cousin came over to my house n after that 9pm drama, we watched snippets of David Tao's SOUL concert and then the Yellow Submarine cartoon movie...David tao is really supeerrr! he could sing live and it was almost flawless! His had full control of his vocals...he pulled of improvisation of his songs extremely well and did some interesting renditions of songs like "somewhere over the rainbow"...Tension performed an acapella with him..and they were pitch-perfect...it was spectacular even on dvd. Impressed..incredibly impressed... Then the Yellow Submarine movie haha...it was a well-knowed cartoon in the 1960s (about 'Blue Meanies' attacking 'Pepperland' haha)...so the pictures were really linear! The script rocks..it was darn hilarious, bits n pieces of humour here n there...sadly, i was too tired and fell asleep while my 22 yr-old cousin sang along to the Beatles songs.....yar he loves the Beatles....................